Well hey there pal o tumble, tumble pal. Long time no see,talk,re post
Shits been cray but yet surprisingly the fucking same. work fucking sucks same shit different day, and in my case literally because thats what i do for a living. I need to go back to fucking school and waste my money on books and classes and suppies to learn stupid shit so i can make more money, because money rules the world. and all that nonsense.
I hardly have any friends. and the friends that i do have at least have other lives than just their friends, such as babies, boyfriends, and shiiit. I try to make new friends but then its always a fail because for some odd reason i find myself antisocial but yet surprisingly social. I can go to a party and be a blast,…yet no one seems to want to hang out with me outside of that. or maybe its just me, and its all in my head.
Love, hah, whats love. I do am starting to believe that it is not out there for me. Sure, there are plenty of fish in the sea, but I will never meet all these fish, so even if there was a fish out there for me, its highly unlikely that we will never cross paths. which is sad for me. Honestly, all i really want right now is my own place with someone i love. I just want to cuddle up on my own couch with my own man watching our own tv smoking our weed and cigarettes. is that so much to ask for? Although i have had many options and oppurtunties i always seem to drift away from talking to them for whatever odd reason. I’m just waiting to find that feeling you know, and if i dont feel it then i blow it off. and when there are times that i do FEEL something for him, he’s always never interested. so ive come to realization that “what wants me, i dont want. and what I want, doesnt want me” so i will never be happy.
lastly, this post shows the truth about how fucking long its been since ive been on a computer because of these horrid run on sentences. and the. atrocious use of commas.
thanks for keeps your posts open for me Tumblr..
one breath at a time,